2012-11-09

Loss of Memory



Always that my mother calls me I begin to tremble. It's sure something is wrong. A breakdown, a problem in her house, a neighbors meeting, whatever, but  it is always something bad. Well, up to a point. It is bad for me. When I have all things under control at home, when everything seems to be fine, is in that moment when my mother calls me. It is something inevitable and I am afraid I am not the only one person at whom happens it.

My mother is eighty two years old and she is already starting with the ailments of her age. Forgetfulness is the most remarkable. It is a very delicate matter. I recognize that it is necessary to have a lot of patience to do not lose the nerves. It have been very hard, over all at first. It is a mixture of a thousand of sensations, disbelief, irritation, anger, sadness, so on. Especially sadness. After be with her and get home it is difficult for me contain the tears. She is conscious about her "situation" until a true point. But, I notice it, and I need blame God because life has to be so cruel. I feel powerless. I can not do anything. I say myself, it is sad but it has to be like that. It is very hard seen my mother in this situation but I have to learn to accept that things are as they are and ... it is a very hard lesson to learn.

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  1. Always WHEN my mother calls me I begin to tremble. It's sure TO BE something wrong. A breakdown, a problem in her house, a neighbors meeting, whatever, but it is always something bad. Well, up to a point. It is bad for me. When I have all things under control at home, when everything seems to be fine, IT is in that moment when my mother calls me. It is something inevitable and I am afraid I am not the only [] person TO whom IT happens.

    My mother is eightY-Two years old and she is already starting with the ailments of her age. Forgetfulness is the most remarkable. It is a very delicate matter. I recognize that it is necessary to have a lot of patience to [] not lose (the nerves)(better: control of myself). It haS been very hard, ESPECIALLY at first. It is a mixture of a thousand [] sensations, disbelief, irritation, anger, sadness, so on. Especially sadness. After beING with her and getTING home it is difficult for me TO contain the tears. She is conscious about her "situation" (until a true point)(?). But, I notice it, and I need TO blame God because life has to be so cruel. I feel powerless. I can not do anything. I say TO myself, it is sad but it has to be like that. It is very hard TO seE my mother in this situation but I have to learn to accept that things are as they are and ... it is a very hard lesson to learn.

    You used "whom" perfectly. That puts you above 90% of native speakers! You expressed yourself very well, talking about a very difficult situation.

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  2. Always () when my mother calls me I begin to tremble. It`s A SURE THING THAT something is wrong. A breakdown, a problem in her house, a neighbors meeting, whatever, but it is always something bad. Well, up to a point. It is bad for me. When I have () EVERYTHING under control at home, when everything seems to be fine, IT is in that moment when my mother calls me. It is something inevitable and I am afraid I am not the only () person() THAT IT HAPPENS TO.

    My mother is eighty two years old and she is already starting (or suffering from) the ailments () that AFFECT PEOPLE of her age. Forgetfulness is the most remarkable. It is a very delicate matter. I recognize that it is necessary to have a lot of patience to () not lose the nerves (OR LOSE MY TEMPER) It() HAS been very hard () at first. It is a mixture of a thousand () sensations, disbelief, irritation, anger, sadness AND so on. Especially sadness. After () BEING with her and()GETTING home it is difficult for me TO contain the tears. She is conscious about her situation (or condition) UP TO A POINT. But, I notice it, and I need TO blame God because life has to be so cruel. I feel powerless. I can not do anything. I say TO myself,it is sad but it has to be like that. It is very hard () SEEING my mother in this situation but I have to learn to accept that things are as they are and it is a very hard lessons to learn.

    What a sad story Eduardo and I am really sorry to read about your problems and as you said, many people are going through the same problems with elderly relatives, but this does not make it any easier for you. You have all my sympathies.

    Katie

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  3. A lot of thanks Katie. I had just arrived from her home when I started writing. It was the first thing that came to my head. I did not expect awakening so sorry. It is really a very difficult situation. I am watching a candle which is gradually consuming itself. It is the same that happened myself with my grandfather on father side. Until a day... the flame went out.

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  4. Yes life can be very sad Eduardo, we all have this experience at one time or another, it is part of life, but still very sad.

    Katie

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