Loneliness

Loneliness

It’s eight in the evening and I’m feeling lonely. My wife has just left home to go to work and I’m feeling kind of lonely, I promise. I don’t know what happens to me lately, but I’ve realised that something has changed inside my mind and makes me think different. 

One year ago, it has never crossed my mind to think about my retirement, about what would happen when I was old and tired. I don’t have children so it might be possible that the fact of not having children makes me think about the loneliness of people at the age of retirement, when some of your relatives and friends have set off on their journey to a place anybody has never return from and those who are still alive feel the same loneliness in their hearts as you feel in yours. 

Generally talking, everybody knows that these days people don’t want to take care of the elderly. This is something I continuously repeat in my mind in order to try to relieve me from thinking about the foreseeing problems related to get older. Maybe I’m right but, on second thoughts, there is no doubt that in spite of the fact of being isolated in a house for the elderly, people who have sons and daughters will always have the possibility to see a friendly face from time to time.  

At the moment this is what my heart and mind feel. I don’t know what will happen to me in the long run. I wish I could get out of my head these thoughts and try to enjoy more life. My dog and best friend, Kas is here beside me, leaning on me, always making me feel good. He’s able to transmit me all his kindness and love towards me by the look in his eyes.

I know he loves me. I love him in return, a big part of my heart is his. I couldn’t live without him. He’s the one who I talk to, the one I tell my secrets, the one who is with me when I burst into tears or I feel depressed about the problems in my company, the one who never let me down.

I love you Kas, we’re getting older together, but I’m sure that the love we feel each other, will be bigger as the time goes by.